im digging myself deeper into this whole

and im pushing away people that care about me

im pushing away my conscience

just going deeper and deeper into this problem and addiction of mine…

its gone past doing it because i was sad

but now that im feeling that im over you

im doing it just because i need it

i need the two

just like how i used to need you

the only thing left of me is a shell.

the shell that is what is on the outside…

on the inside theres a monster waiting to get out. 

a monster that just wants to be love and be loved, 

but a monster that wants revenge on the world.

a monster that wants to buy all that he can and take as much as he can

if i die i die

if i need help than i wont get it.

im doing this to myself as punishment

for loving someone to much

for trying so fucking hard to do the right thing

for still wanting you back

man im a fool in love

a fool that has certain limits to his self control

limits he set