im disgusted with you…

i dont even know what to do or say.

i think im starting to get over you…

im trying to turn this burning love into a burning hate…

and everything you do helps.

you want to “be single and have fun”? fuck you you dumb slut bitch

im sorry and i love you

but i hate you so much and it makes it hard to do this..

you dont even realize the half of it

YES you were my girlfriend and the love of my life

but you were also the very best friend i ever had

you were part of my family

and you just tore yourself out of everything like you never existed with me

but i have proof…

all our shit. some of your little things you left behind… your hair thats still all over my bathroom.

the glitter on my bathroom floor from your headband thing you wore for starbucks…

your long blue polka dotted sock

our pictures

our box of stuff

your half drankin water bottles

the paper you wrote your work schedule for a long time ago…

your blanket

your two world map posters you left in my room

why do i still hear your last goodbyes…

fuck, i was going so long without crying. a whole day. and look what i started

all im left with is our leftovers

while your starting the life you wanted

that i feared.

but im not in your life.

theres nothing i can do but sit and watch.

cant you see that i need you the most right now? 

you selfish stupid slutty bitch

im sorry.